Changes, changes.....

I have to write about everything that has been going on lately. Cameron, as I type, is folding laundry! He came in and asked me to teach him, so I did, and here we are. He learned to swim all by himself this summer and he is very proud of that, as am I. Christian took his first steps on Aug 1st and has been quickly catching on since then. My boys amaze me everyday and I'm so thankful for them. My Dad is in Colorado looking for work, which makes me sad- but it's kind of cool that he is getting to see a side of the world that he's never seen. Every day is the same yet very different and sometimes I try to envision our lives from the outside looking in.
I hope I measure up to the person I want to be. I try to be kind and giving. I want to be the kind of mom that my boys look back and brag about. Sometimes I fail, miserably, but i'd like to think that I'm working toward my goal.
Sometimes I feel like cleaning my house spotless and just taking shelter under the wings of my little family. Almost like I'm scared to leave. I'm a really happy person, but some days there seems to be a little rain cloud hanging over me- probably pms!
I had a failed batch of soap today, which upsets me because I hate wasting.